Pregnancy Thoughts

Just the other week someone asked me what I liked about most about my pregnancy. This is actually something that I have been thinking about a lot lately as the pregnancy is almost over and the next phase of motherhood begins. For me the best time has been the end of second trimester and the third trimester. Third trimester has been more clumsy and tiring as I have gotten so much bigger, so quickly but I am enjoying taking the time to rest in between tasks and this is when baby and I ‘play’. I can talk to him and he’ll kick me in response. I can push and poke him and he will kick and move in response, although sometimes (like when I am hurting and trying to sleeping) he gets a little carried away and I have to tell him to take it easy! I enjoy sharing with him my hopes and dreams for him and my excitement and nervousness about meeting him for the first time.

Many people know that I’m a ‘control freak’ and this pregnancy has made me realise that I’m going to have to ‘let go’ quite a bit and take things as they come. I have really had to make a conscious effort during the pregnancy to not let things upset me and to be as positive as possible. Although I have some control over the birth and the years ahead, at times I am going to have to trust other people, from the OB to people helping me once the baby is born. I think that this is something that I am going to have to consciously keep working on but I am confident that a new baby to focus on will help me.

C – Section Confirmed

Last week’s appointment with the OB confirmed that I will need a C – Section and I have been booked in for 03/03/10 (if not interrupted by act of God). I have to be at the hospital at 6.30am and the surgery will be some time in the morning. I am nervous about having the epidural but I don’t want a general because I want to be awake to see my baby being born. For me it is about ‘letting go’ of control and putting full faith in God and the surgical team.

With less than 4 weeks to go I’m starting to take things a little easier (at least not lifting anything too heavy) or doing anything that will send me in to labour. I still have things to do and need everyday I can get. At this stage I can’t believe how fast the 9 months has crept up on me. I should have started organising things a little earlier. In fact I thought with my OCD the nesting would have started earlier but I just need to not stress and remember that when I come out from hospital the dusting will not matter!